It's been a week

It's been a week since I've spoken with her. It's sad that a friend of her knows her oh so well and said to me not too long ago that she is in opportunist. I see that now. It wasn't hasn't been easy, but I fought myself for a week just to see if I could do it, but I can see the picture a lot more clearly now. I may be her ex, but she claimed she couldn't rid me of her life completely. Yet I was only contacted when there was no one else around and/or shit got bad. It's sad but I'm not crying. I still pray for her in my nightly prayers. Someone that lives like that lives a poor, dark, cold life, and I would never wish that upon anyone. I may not have a lot of money but my life is full of riches you can't buy or get from a paycheck. I've gotten over the fact that she came to me complaining about a legal matter, and I gave her advice based on all of my first hand experience with the courts, and surprisingly she not only did what I said, but the courts accepted it and yet I've heard nothing, not even a thank you. Am I mad? No. Sad? No. Surprised? No. I could go down the list, and the answer would always be no. Don't take this as me being cold hearted, take it as me being strong enough to understand that this is my life, and I can only control my life, and even that, only so much of that is even in my control, most of it is in God's control.

"God will always bring the right people into your life but you have to let the wrong people walk away."

A quote a friend of mine posted via Instagram.

I know this to be a fact from my own experiences time and time again. But I want to add this. She may be the wrong for me now, but for a good amount of time she was the right that God put into my life. For all teh good and the bad she brought to the table, she was the right person in my life at the time, and now I'm so much wiser, stronger, more confident, more driven, more independent, etc... But like all great Athletes, there comes a time where you're just no longer needed in my life, you're hurting the teams efforts and outcomes and you have to part ways.

Today is day one of two days off and I'm so eager to do so much in these two days! Both chore-like things like my taxes, get a haircut, take grandpa to the Doctors, etc... But also mostly, spending time with great friends, creating memories that will last a lifetime, uncontrollable laughter that at times hurts.

Today I'm living my life Sober not boring and with no regrets. To life with regrets to me means to live life with doubts. I have no doubt that my God has my life in his hands. When I figure out my greater cause (If I'm already not doing so without really knowing), I'll be ready and more than eager, but in the meantime I'm focusing on being a great person, friend, son, grandson, brother, nephew, coworker, teammate, stranger, etc... 

Hope you're having a wonderful day! If not, it's okay because you have the power to choose to finish the day right! So put on a smile no matter what because life doesn't stop and someone is always watching and being influenced by you...