Today is day 3 of no Chewing Tobacco, and though at times I get the urge to go buy some, I don't. I'm using the help of a Vape and am using minimal Nicotine to get out of the physical habit and the chemical dependency. So far, it's working, and I'm having to use the Vape less and less.
A lot has happened since my last post, and a lot has happened since. I've refrained from posting every time so that on a day like today I can post what really matters.
I've been praying every night, about so much, but mainly asking God to relieve me from trying to control so much and allow his guidance to take me where I'm supposed to be. Praying has given me a great inner peace with myself. I feel better in so many ways throughout the days and am able to get more done each and every day.
I find myself making impacts in lives I didn't intend to have an impact on and even ones where I tried to have an impact on. It's a great feeling to be looked up to and it's very humbling. I don't do it for praise of any sort, I do it from my heart, and for the fact that this makes me be held accountable for my actions. In turn, when I'm helping others, they're also helping me be better and stronger.
As far as some of my facebook posts, they can be misleading. I may come off as needy, lacking confidence, emo, etc... I post about things like I don't have anyone, or need a cuddle buddy... These posts are meant to be playful to some extent. I say to some extent because I'm not in need, but naturally I would like those things very much, but in no means am I in need, desperate or even "Thirsty".
As far as communications with my ex and anything else regarding her. I'm not going to waste your time and/or mine blogging about her anymore unless it is significant. I've got my thoughts and feelings about her life but that has no room here. I still pray for her safety and well being as I do for a lot of my friends and family and even the strangers I come across. With all that being said, we're never getting back together, NEVER, but I still wish nothing bad upon her. Moving on.
I have made a decision to live my life positively and to try and think about my actions various times if necessary before making an action/statement. I'm creating a brand for myself that only targets myself. I'm not inconsiderate of others but in reality, it only matters that I'm willing to buy what I'm trying to sell to myself.
Some things you may consider doing that I like to do to have a positive impact on the world regardless if someone is watching or not:
-Open a door for someone
-Pick up a piece of trash and dispose of it properly
-Offer someone your assistance just because you can
-Smile
-Reach out to someone who may be shy and ask them how their day is going/was. Create a conversation and wish them well with a smile and maybe even a hug or a good handshake.
These are some little things that could not only impact someones mood, but also even save a life. Never underestimate the power of a smile and a kind heart, it goes a long way. How far will your smile and heart take you today?
I like your choices for positive impact. Try making eye contact while asking people how their day is going (cashiers especially) -- they do not expect to be asked and to actually get looked in the eye like you care really makes a sincere point of contact with them. This is one of my favorite things to do around town.
ReplyDeleteI am very proud of where you are in your thinking and planning in your life. God will lead you and bless you in so many ways as you spend time with Him in prayer. Love & blessings to you - Eileen